Hi Bill,

Thanks for sharing this! I hope you are able to deal with this situation the best way possible, and that a better understanding of sociopaths will help you with it.

Your sister killing your fish is nasty, but you got away easy. Below is what happens if you are never helped to escape people like your sister. If you have a weak stomach do not read further.
Both my sister & mother are sociopaths & my father was negligent. Due to the abuse & neglect, I have psychiatric problems and have been physically crippled. Dad refused medical attention and died to escape, but first extracted a promise that I would take care of both, thereby forcing me to revisit my childhood abuse. I have taken care of them, taken their abuse, and in my sister’s case theft of large quantities of $. I am now so sick I can’t walk, and so psychologically sick I can’t protect myself- how does someone protect themselves from an elderly person in assisted living? Caregivers are incapable of caring for her due to her behavior. My sister, only interested in money, manipulates me even when I know she’s doing it. They are slowly killing me either by refusing to allow me to set things up so I can walk, or by manipulating me because I am “devoted” to their care through my need to keep the family fianances going. I have disconnected myself from them for the past few days by making it impossible for them to reach me. This is not a Ling-term solution. I have no one willing to help me because of my own psych problems and because no one wants to get involved with such a mess, & rightly so. That leaves me alone to slowly drown in their abusive uncaring milieux, with my sister’s plans to leave me penniless when my mother dies and no one to help me get away. I sincerely do not wish to die. My ambition is to help others before they end up like me. I welcome any advice.

In my opinion, my parents were not the most understanding and the most emotionally nurturing in the way that I needed. I didn’t feel as if I fit in anywhere and due to anxiety I didn’t attend many events and if I did I feel like I was trying a bit harder to get people to like me and I wanted to make sure that people around me were happy. I disliked seeing people upset when I was younger, as a result, I forget about my own emotional needs and I tried to make people happy to my expense and I never got to appropriately express my emotion. I’m a Bisexual male that was closeted for years so I believe I got accustomed to hiding parts of who I am. I eventually ended up with a narcissist for years and I gave up most of the morals and values I have because I just wanted to feel alive and the feeling was too good. I felt empty and felt I was abused by a narcissist, flash forward I was with someone I believed was my soulmate and I felt I was still hiding parts of who I am when I was around his friends/family to be the best version of myself but I always wanted to express my emotions properly I just didn’t know how. I feel like I relate to sociopaths and I can avoid pain and emotions for a good while but then after a day or two of being manic and overwhelming myself I end up feeling way too much and Its crippling and too often. I don’t believe all sociopaths are the same, and the way I feel is not the same as a sociopath because I care too much but I just believe that my emotions become too much to deal with and people don’t always accept me for it. It gets so bad about two times a week that I just want to commit suicide but I don’t. Ive been in therapy for a year and a half and I still miss my ex and trying to find myself.

I’m glad that the information has helped you. Best of luck!